Today, I feel wrapped around a layer of confusion. This morning I literally pinched myself in order to convince myself that I was really awake to another day. Struggling with many emotions this morning I make myself get up from bed. Unsure of my feelings I keep pondering about the argument I had last night. I guess I’m still in shock of the piercing words that one of my most trustworthy friends said to me. As I am writing this right now, I hear the echo of her words replaying over and over again in my head. This puts me in a stage of confusion, one in which I start to question myself as an individual. To a degree I feel weak because she affected my emotions.
It is funny how one person’s opinion can really knock you right off your own two feet. It is funny how you think you know someone, but you don’t. It is funny how it makes you question, not only yourself but also your loved ones. Overall I guess the lesson that should be learned from this experience should be to trust only myself to succeed in everything the future will bring. I guess people like my “friend” are placed into my path to test my will.
Staying collected is the difficult part, especially when all the pieces of me are scattered all over the place . In a slow pace I encouraged myself to continue moving forward. I know that it will take searching and thinking today in order to recollect myself once again. I will absorb her words as a cool breeze , rather than a fierce wind.
Concentrating on the reflection of my face upon the computer screen I am chilled because I am chilled because I am able to ignore her judgment. However I am doubtful because of the venom her words carried, but I know that once that the venom is sucked out of my system I will come out on top and most importantly I will not allow anyone to define “ Who I am”.
It is funny how one person’s opinion can really knock you right off your own two feet. It is funny how you think you know someone, but you don’t. It is funny how it makes you question, not only yourself but also your loved ones. Overall I guess the lesson that should be learned from this experience should be to trust only myself to succeed in everything the future will bring. I guess people like my “friend” are placed into my path to test my will.
Staying collected is the difficult part, especially when all the pieces of me are scattered all over the place . In a slow pace I encouraged myself to continue moving forward. I know that it will take searching and thinking today in order to recollect myself once again. I will absorb her words as a cool breeze , rather than a fierce wind.
Concentrating on the reflection of my face upon the computer screen I am chilled because I am chilled because I am able to ignore her judgment. However I am doubtful because of the venom her words carried, but I know that once that the venom is sucked out of my system I will come out on top and most importantly I will not allow anyone to define “ Who I am”.
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I REALLY ENJOYED YOUR BLOG. IT WAS VERY DESCRIPTIVE AND IT WAS VERY DEEP I COULD RELATE TO WHAT YOUR ARE FEELING.
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